“Hopefully as you get older, you start to learn how to live with your demon. It’s hard at first. Some people give their demon so much room that there is no space in their head or bed for love. They feed their demon and it gets really strong and then it makes them stay in abusive relationships or starve their beautiful bodies. But sometimes, you get a little older and get a little bored of the demon. Through good therapy and friends and self-love you can practice treating the demon like a hacky, annoying cousin. Maybe a day even comes when you are getting dressed for a fancy event and it whispers, “You aren’t pretty,” and you go, “I know, I know, now let me find my earrings.” Amy Poehler, Yes, Please 💕⠀ ⠀
the quietness of quarantine, the lax expectations to get myself gussied up, the gym’s being closed and the dark cloud hanging over our world has let my demons creep back into my heart and soul and remind me of all the reasons why i shouldn’t love myself. ⠀ ⠀
they scream: “You aren’t pretty.” “You aren’t valuable at work.” “You’re too big.” “Your friends forgot about you.” “You’re annoying.” and all the silence surrounding me only let’s it echo so loudly. ⠀ ⠀
but then i remember, i am healthy. i am loved. i am capable. i am always working to improve. i make my coworkers laugh with thoughtfully placed memes in emails. i convinced someone to marry me, and have people who want to see it happen. i have a family who asks me everyday how I’m doing. i have a great job. i have and i AM so much. and all those “am” statements help shut up those demons.⠀ ⠀
all this to say, that don’t let this quiet time be a playground for your demons. because they don’t deserve it. and TBH, who the hell can handle more darkness right now? ⠀ ⠀
now, off to go slap on my hoops ❤️
also, go read Yes, Please (and while you’re at it, Mindy Kaling’s books too!)